八三年初春的一天早上，我和邻居刘兄弟去西边几个村庄要饭（一直到八八年，我们村子里才没有人再要饭。那时候无非是要一些红薯干、高梁面饼子、及红薯、红萝卜等一些杂粮。只有年前年后十几天才能要到好面馍馍）。当我二人跑了几个村庄后我有点累了，于是就想先回去。刘兄弟比我大几岁，他自己继续要饭去了。
我挎着草篮、和草篮里要来的二三斤红薯干、高梁面窝窝头等杂粮，在日正午时回到了本村子的地界。在离村子半里多地时，我忽然看到奶奶的坟前站着一个老婆婆。她在奶奶的坟前站了一会儿，然后离开坟地上了一条生产路，顺路向西走去。
我当时并没想到那就是死去的奶奶，竟管奶奶死后常在我的梦中、或意识模糊中出现。我只以为这个老婆婆我不认识，不是我们村里的。所以我就想知道她是谁，为什么去我奶奶的坟前。
我从齐腰深的小麦地里斜插过去，跟在了那老婆婆的身后。就在离老婆婆二十几步时我看清楚了，惊恐中脚步慢慢的停下了。心儿咚咚急跳着，紧张得我头发都竖立了起来：那老婆婆的背影、那一头灰白的头发、那一身蓝色的棉袄棉裤－－分明是我死去一年多的奶奶呀！天已经热了，她还穿着离开时我父母亲给她做的新棉袄棉裤。
我从惊恐中清醒后，想起奶奶生前最心疼的人是我，于是也便不怎么害怕了。心想奶奶就是变成了鬼也不会害我，她一定又是想念我了，所以才显灵现身，看看她这个也最爱她的三孙子。
我上有哥哥姐姐，下有弟弟，但奶奶在世时上不疼大的，下不疼小的，偏偏疼爱我。其中原因，我想多半是因为我常常帮着她对付、经常和她闹别扭的我母亲吧。
当我稳住心神，又跟着奶奶的鬼魂走了二十几步后。奶奶往南一拐弯，走进了一条干枯的、生产地大水沟，齐腰深的小麦和水沟的深度挡住了奶奶的身影。当我拐过地角，顺着水沟一看，奶奶就在距我二十几步时一闪身，竟然凭空在我眼前消失了！我喊了几声奶奶，四周一点声音都没有。我定了定心神，这才发现身上衣物全汗湿了。我又冷静了一下，也便流着泪回了村子。
到家时正是午饭，父亲接过我的篮子，擦了我的泪、听了我的叙述后咕哝了一句：不是你奶奶，还会是谁。
午饭后我开始发烧，母亲抱起我往屋后的十字路口一坐、对着家里祖坟的方向就念叨起来了（奶奶就埋在那里）：孩子才十多岁，你再疼他想他也不能这样，把孩子吓着了咋弄？你也真是的（家乡风俗习惯。小孩子受到惊吓、其父母怀疑是某某死者、或其他鬼魂邪气做怪时，往往会坐在自家门坎上、或村里的十字路口采取治疗措施。一种是一边喊着孩子的名子，一边拉长声调说‘在哪儿吓着了回来吃饭了’的为叫魂；一种是如我母亲这样念叨的、好象是说给鬼魂听的方式，土声土语的叫‘怨议怨议’。严重者还会在十字路口烧纸（家乡人对冥币的通称）磕头，或请阴阳先生除魔驱鬼、甚至抬着孩子在几个村子里绕圈子，每路过十字路口便会烧纸磕头。实际上，很多孩子都是生了重病而已。）……
或许生者的话死者能听到吧，从此以后，奶奶除了在我梦中出现外，再也没在我眼前出现过。如今很多年过去了，也许是奶奶的灵验已耗尽了吧，就是梦里也很少再和我见面了。
我写此文除了思想里永远怀念奶奶外，就是想告诉世人：人唯一可与时间抗衡的只有思想而已。无论多么深厚的亲情、爱情、友情，抑或是仇恨，都可以在时间里诞生，也可以在时间里淡忘。唯有思想，是时间唯一不可冲破的记忆之门！
望着远方，落寞的问一句：奶奶，您在那里还好吗？
Introduce:A day of 83 years early spring in the morning, I and neighbour Liu brother go in the west a few villages are beggar (arrive 88 years all the time, the ability in our village is again beggar without the person. That moment no more than is to want a few yam pancake of face of dry, sorghum, reach a few food grains other than wheat and rice such as yam, red turnip. Ten days of after year ability before forring years only want steamed bread of good side steamed bun) . When me 2 people walked after a few villages I am a bit tired, want to go back first then. Liu brother is bigger than me a few years old, he himself continues beggar went. I am carrying on the arm careless basket, with 23 jins of yam that should come in careless basket the food grains other than wheat and rice such as steamed bread of corn of face of dry, sorghum, bencunzi's the boundary of a piece of land was returned when day is noonday. Be in from the village when half lis of many ground, I see there is a granny before the grave of the grandma suddenly. She stood a little while before the grave of the grandma, left cemetery to get on to produce a way next, suitable direction westing goes. I did not think of that is gone grandma at that time, after be in charge of a grandma to die unexpectedly, often be in my dream, or appear in recognizant faintness. I think I do not know this husband's mother only, not be our village. So I want to know who she is, why to go before the grave of my grandma. I from the wheaten ground with neat deep pocket inclined insert the past, follow in the back of that granny. Be in from granny I saw well when two paces, the footstep in frightening slowly stopped. heart Dong Dong is jumping urgently, insecurity gets me the hair is erect rise: The cotton-padded jacket cotton-padded trousers of blue of that one the back of that granny, ashen hair, that a suit - - it is me clearly gone a year of much grandma ah! The day had been heated up, I am parental when she returns dress to leave the cotton-padded trousers of new cotton-padded jacket that does to her. After I regain consciousness from inside frighten, remember a grandma before one's death most the person that feel distressed is me, then also not very feared. The heart thinks the grandma became ghost to also won't kill me namely, she is to miss me certainly, so ability a ghost show its presence or power shows a body, visit the 3 grandchildren that she also loves her this most. There is brother elder sister on me, there is a little brother below, but go up not to ache when the grandma is alive big, do not ache below small, be very fond of me unluckily. Its Central Plains because, I think because I often am helping her make do,most is, often mix my of her be difficult with sb mother. Live firmly when me mind, after the soul that follows a grandma again took two steps. Grandma southward one bend, walked into sere, channel of flood of crude place of production, the deepness of the wheat with neat deep pocket and ditch held off the form of the grandma. When me abduct spends land part, look down ditch, the grandma is in be apart from my one dodge when two paces, actually without foundation disappeared at the moment in me! I called a grandma a few times, a bit sound is done not have all around. My centering is magical, this ability discovers complete sweat of body jacket content is wet. I sober, also shedding a tear to answer a village. When arriving home
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